Feeling so out of place,<\/p>\n
like you don\u2019t fit in anywhere,<\/p>\n
or at least right here and there.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Alone, alone, standing in that imaginary corner,<\/p>\n
nowhere near, no one can hear you,<\/p>\n
even the one step distance<\/p>\n
doesn\u2019t make the tiniest difference.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
The physical proximity doesn\u2019t decide, really,<\/p>\n
even when you think of it freely.<\/p>\n
You could touch the other person,<\/p>\n
but still stay hollow,<\/p>\n
crying out of pure sorrow.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Is change a thing to debate at all?<\/p>\n
Should you modify yourself in some way or the other?<\/p>\n
Just so other people won\u2019t consider you weird?<\/p>\n
But won\u2019t you stop being unique in that very moment?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Giving up your true self and taking on a mask,<\/p>\n
a completely unlike disguise, a costume that nobody knows.<\/p>\n
But after a while everyone puts on their fake smile,<\/p>\n
assuring you that they supposedly like \u201cyou\u201d.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
The \u201cyou\u201d however isn’t you.<\/p>\n
But you pretend that it is,<\/p>\n
because just for a while you don’t feel completely alone.<\/p>\n
The new \u201cyou\u201d can certainly put on quite a show.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Applause, the crowd cheers,<\/p>\n
and you realize all your fake flaws.<\/p>\n
Making yourself stupid<\/p>\n
even though you know you are smart,<\/p>\n
making yourself say all those awful jokes<\/p>\n
even though you know you have a great sense of humour.<\/p>\n
Making yourself swear and showing them how you really don\u2019t care,<\/p>\n
even though you know that deep inside you obsess over every little thing.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
You know where the line lies.<\/p>\n
You sure as hell know that you\u2019ve stepped out of it pretty long ago.<\/p>\n
You know that you can\u2019t withstand another of their small talks about alcohol.<\/p>\n
You know exactly what you\u2019ve done wrong and you aren’t going to repeat it all.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Ripping of the mask,<\/p>\n
your truest self makes a reappearance then.<\/p>\n
It’s the only way how to feel good in your own skin,<\/p>\n
how to feel completely free anew.<\/p>\n
Being the genuine you is the only way you can feel whole.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Then you realize you are alone all over again,<\/p>\n
though now it\u2019s so much different.<\/p>\n
Risk wasn\u2019t a gain as you would have expected,<\/p>\n
but taking another look from a whole new perspective<\/p>\n
you find out that it may have just been exactly what your personality needed to grow,<\/p>\n
although you couldn\u2019t have foreseen it at all…<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
When will the right time come?<\/p>\n
When will we be finally accepted for who we truly are?<\/p>\n
Without all those plays and theatrical gestures?<\/p>\n
We never know, but until then, let us be out of place,<\/p>\n
surrounded only with our own thoughts in the turtle\u2019s bulletproof shell.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Nikde nepatr\u00edm<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
C\u00edtiac tak ve\u013emi, \u017ee tu nepatr\u00edm,<\/p>\n
tak akoby som nemala nikde svoje miesto,<\/p>\n
alebo aspo\u0148 pr\u00e1ve tu i tam.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Sama, sama, stojac v tom imagin\u00e1rnom k\u00fate,<\/p>\n
nikto nabl\u00edzku, nikto \u0165a nepo\u010duje,<\/p>\n
aj vzdialenos\u0165 jedn\u00e9ho kroku<\/p>\n
na tom v\u00f4bec ni\u010d nemen\u00ed.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Fyzick\u00e1 bl\u00edzkos\u0165 ozaj nerozhoduje.<\/p>\n
I ke\u010f sa nad t\u00fdm slobodne zamysl\u00edte.<\/p>\n
Mohli by ste sa dotkn\u00fa\u0165 druh\u00e9ho \u010dloveka a st\u00e1le zosta\u0165 pr\u00e1zdny,<\/p>\n
pla\u010d\u00fac z \u010dist\u00e9ho sm\u00fatku.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
D\u00e1 sa v\u00f4bec debatova\u0165 o zmene?<\/p>\n
Mal by si zmeni\u0165 sam\u00e9ho seba po nejakom oh\u013eade?<\/p>\n
Len preto, aby \u0165a druh\u00ed \u013eudia nebrali za \u010dud\u00e1ka?<\/p>\n
No neprest\u00e1va\u0161 by\u0165 jedine\u010dn\u00fd v tom momente?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Vzd\u00e1\u0161 sa seba sam\u00e9ho nasadzuj\u00fac si masku,<\/p>\n
\u00faplne in\u00e9 preoble\u010denie, kost\u00fdm, ktor\u00fd nikto nepozn\u00e1.<\/p>\n
Po chv\u00edli si v\u0161etci na tv\u00e1r prilepia ten falo\u0161n\u00fd \u00fasmev,<\/p>\n
d\u00e1vaj\u00fac ti vedie\u0165, \u017ee \u201c\u0165a\u201d \u00fadajne maj\u00fa radi.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
No \u201cty\u201d v skuto\u010dnosti nie si ty.<\/p>\n
Aj ke\u010f predstiera\u0161, \u017ee to tak je,<\/p>\n
preto\u017ee sa aspo\u0148 na chv\u00ed\u013eu nec\u00edti\u0161 osamel\u00fd.<\/p>\n
To nov\u00e9 ty vie ur\u010dite urobi\u0165 poriadnu show.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Aplauz a div\u00e1ci jasaj\u00fa,<\/p>\n
a ty si uvedom\u00ed\u0161 v\u0161etky svoje fal\u0161ovan\u00e9 chyby.<\/p>\n
Rob\u00ed\u0161 sa hl\u00fapym,<\/p>\n
aj ke\u010f vie\u0161, \u017ee si m\u00fadry,<\/p>\n
hovor\u00ed\u0161 tie otrasn\u00e9 vtipy,<\/p>\n
aj ke\u010f vie\u0161, \u017ee m\u00e1\u0161 skvel\u00fd zmysel pre humor.<\/p>\n
n\u00fati\u0161 sa nad\u00e1va\u0165 a ukazuje\u0161 im ako m\u00e1\u0161 v\u0161etko v pa\u017ei,<\/p>\n
aj ke\u010f vie\u0161, \u017ee hlboko vo vn\u00fatri si posadnut\u00fd ka\u017edou jednou mali\u010dkos\u0165ou.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Vie\u0161 kde le\u017e\u00ed hranica.<\/p>\n
Ve\u013emi dobre vie\u0161, \u017ee si ju prekro\u010dil a to u\u017e dos\u0165 d\u00e1vno.<\/p>\n
Vie\u0161, \u017ee u\u017e nevydr\u017e\u00ed\u0161 po\u010d\u00fava\u0165 \u010fal\u0161iu z t\u00fdch ich re\u010d\u00ed o alkohole.<\/p>\n
Vie\u0161 presne \u010do si urobil zle a nebude\u0161 to predsa cel\u00e9 znovu opakova\u0165.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Strh\u00e1va\u0161 dole masku,<\/p>\n
tvoje prav\u00e9 ja sa vtedy objav\u00ed.<\/p>\n
Je to jedin\u00fd sp\u00f4sob ako sa m\u00f4\u017ee\u0161 znova c\u00edti\u0165 dobre vo vlastnej ko\u017ei,<\/p>\n
ako sa nanovo c\u00edti\u0165 \u00faplne vo\u013en\u00fd.<\/p>\n
By\u0165 tvoj\u00edm autentick\u00fdm ja je jedin\u00fd sp\u00f4sob ako sa m\u00f4\u017ee\u0161 odznova c\u00edti\u0165 naplnen\u00fd.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Potom si uvedom\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee si zas \u00faplne s\u00e1m,<\/p>\n
aj ke\u010f teraz je to \u00faplne in\u00e9.<\/p>\n
Risk nebol zisk tak akoby si \u010dakal,<\/p>\n
ale ak sa na to e\u0161te raz pozrie\u0161 z in\u00e9ho uhla poh\u013eadu,<\/p>\n
zist\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee je to pr\u00e1ve naopak, ke\u010f tvoja osobnos\u0165 n\u00e1jde sp\u00f4sob a za\u010dne r\u00e1s\u0165,<\/p>\n
aj ke\u010f si to v\u00f4bec nemohol predv\u00edda\u0165…<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Kedy u\u017e pr\u00edde ten spr\u00e1vny \u010das?<\/p>\n
Kedy n\u00e1s u\u017e kone\u010dne pr\u00edjmu tak\u00fdch ak\u00fdch sme?<\/p>\n
Bez v\u0161etk\u00fdch t\u00fdch divadielok a teatr\u00e1lnych gest?<\/p>\n
Jeden nikdy nevie, no zatia\u013e n\u00e1s nechajte vy\u010dnieva\u0165 z davu,<\/p>\n
obklopen\u00fdch len vlastn\u00fdmi my\u0161lienkami v nepriestrelnom korytna\u010dom pancieri.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Zuzana<\/p>\n
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